Thursday, November 17, 2011


As a cranky son, I don't always think a father's life would be much easier than it looks. I find my father for instance, unpredictable. Though as a father's son I usually think I've known my father well, but I still can't explain why sometimes it would be very hard to anticipate what he had in mind.
"What goes around comes around"

Thats karma, thats life. Where whatever you did, you would just get the same thing in return. You pay someone a good deed, the very same thing he'll give you. You dare to commit wrong things, be dare to face the music too. Everything bought, must be paid. That is the law of a worldly life. 

But guess what, that law doesn't apply to a father. You see, I'm a cranky son, I misbehaved a lot. I don't always agree with my father. He says white,and I see black. I am a rebellious son when I was younger. When there were some things that I asked from my father but he objected, I got clamped up real quick and try to show how angry I was as apparent as I could. Slammed door, whines and sinister smiles, anything. 

Sometimes when my father perceived my protests such so, I would got punished instantly. Recalling the strokes of rattan, locked doors from inside, and other punishments I got when I was younger had always left a mark in myself. I always thought that he hated me badly.

But I was actually got deceived by my own negative mind. Despite of all the punishments my father gave me that I assumed before were how he manifest his hates towards me, he actually bought me a cake for my birthdays, give me presents when I excelled something and always be late to work because he sent me to school on the first place for like, everyday! There was some times before that I heard that his boss had always called him at the office and mad at him for being always late to work. You know how it made you think when you know you're the main reason why your father always late to work and he had to face the boss every time. Because of you.

Since then I don't see any hates anymore. It was just me.

Now you see how that karma doesn't work to a father, to my father. Whatever I gave him, no matter how cranky, how bad, how naughty I was, he'll will just give me one and only; a fathers love.

(Even though the punishments are still following~ XD)

"Dear father, this Dean List is for you.."

>>I really hope some day I will be able to post a status update in my Facebook, like that :)

Love ya, father. Whatever you do, you're always my hero. <3

Saturday, October 8, 2011

I Am Not A Good Guy

Into the cafe. In the middle of the class. Down the corridor. By the roadside. Anywhere.

Why did when I walked in front of a crowd at anywhere, everyone is eyeballing me? Don't stare at me please, I don't deserve them..

I am not a guy that is worth seeing. I am a very false guy, I did lots of wrong things. If you give me that attention, I will deceive you. People said I am a good boy, but I am truly not. Judge me form the way I look, and you are making a great mistake. I just looks like a any other USIM students who wear songkok and keep a smart look, but no I am absolutely not that good. Wearing songkok doesn't make me any better, but I just looks like one when I do. I am a boy who did lots of mistakes and offenses.

Just don't look at me.. 

I don't manifest myself, with my appearance. I don't own a good look, and I don't own a good heart. I always wanted to commit sins and wrong things many times. Like, when I always prioritizing my own desire than other peoples needs. I would do anything to please myself and to make myself happy, coz that is all what I am concerning at all time.. I am a bad guy.

To those who become my friends, if you are going to list your friends from the worst to the best, please be sure to put my name at the bottom. Coz I am your worst friend, ever. I always think of myself before you. All I care first is my own feelings, and yours and the others don't always mean a thing to me. To say that I'm a friend who appreciate his friends, is totally overrated. I am really not. Have you ever saw me brought you a cake during your birthday? Or be the shoulder for you to cry when you were sad? Or gave you all the assistance you need when you asked? No.

Please don't look at me. Get me away from your sight, coz I don't deserve it.


Monday, September 12, 2011

Undergraduate Life

Today's the second day of my life as an undergraduate student in USIM. Feelings? Uneven. Yes of course I'm kinda excited coz I finally prevailed to be in a university; an aim in my list of dreams-to-be-achieved-in-life which had finally got fulfilled. But as I discovered the schedule, I felt screwed. 

I never expect that every classes would take place in different faculties. EVERYTIME. You have to know how each faculties aren't just a step away, but might be hundreds of it. Oh God..

(I really need a ride. Modenas Kriss, you're freaking PRECIOUS at these moments)

So along these 2 long days, I dragged myself there and there. If luck wasn't on my side, like today, I've to walk again to my hostel in a scorching sunny heat. Feels like a roasted duck in a middle of a burning desert, walking slowly in dire need of water, and destination. It is like 3 or 4 kilometres of walks per days, and it isn't funny at all.

I just met the dean of Faculty of Science and Technology just now, trying to work on some progresses on my appeal to change my courses. But he acted real cold seeing me, and I felt so not much welcomed when I just stepped into his office. Before I could even say a word, he overruled and said that he don't want to listen to anything; any reasons any explanations whatsoever. He said he had been through all those things for over 8 years, and it sickens him. He just asked me to submit my application and wait for any progresses. 

Kilometres of walk in sun and thirst, and this is what I got?

He's lucky he is the dean. And I am the one who seeks for help. Or else..

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Mr. JAKIM Officer, I Beg To Differ

Yesterday an officer from JAKIM was invited to give a talk to USIM first year students as a slot during our Ta'aruf week at Nilai Stadium. It was supposed to be a talk on "Islam as The State religion Of Malaysia" but he always went away. Well never mind, in fact that was what keeping me awake along long talk; sometimes it was amusing.

There was a time when he suddenly talked about secularism and what is is really. In accordance to his understanding, he defined "secularism" as a doctrine that rejects religion, and by that he assured us how Malaysia isn't practicing secularism by any means, or else Malaysia won't happen to be an Islamic country in which Islam is approved to be the state religion, and there'll be no Islamic institutions in this country, as Sharia Court and even JAKIM, won't appear to establish.

He was right, but the definition wasn't so precise. I'm sorry, but I don't really think that is what "secularism" is all about. So what secularism really is? This is the best answer that I found:

 "Secularism is a view that religion and religious considerations should be ignored or excluded from social and political matters."

If I were to vote whether Malaysia is a secular country or not, I wouldn't hesitate to answer a resounding yes. Why?

Okay, I wasn't going to write much about this because I've already written a post on this months ago HERE, I'll be pointing out just one example to answer the perplexing confusion about secular or non secular dilemma. Just think of this, our country, Malaysia, unlike Pakistan constitution, which states that all laws must be consistent with syariah therefore can be said as non-secular, our constitution doesn't stipulate this. In Malaysia syariah laws are only applied in particular situations, whilst civil laws were applied to all situations. Civil punishments like jail sentence, hang to death sentence etc. are widely applied while Islamic, or Syariah punishments, such as Hudud, is denied.

One of my friend raised his hand and asked a question of the matter of Hudud and why wasn't it be carried out if it is true that Malaysia don't isolate religious matter from other matters to the officer. The officer did his job, he answered the question but his idea was stinks. His point was:

"There is always great fusses about this, why isn't hudud be carried out in our country although we claimed our country to be an Islamic country? Folks, okay, in civil law there is caning punishment, in which we caned strokes of rattan to convicts who did certain offences, and in Islam (syariah law) there are also punishment like this, almost the same. The only difference is, caning is Islam will be much softer while caning in civil punishments is harder, that is the only adjustment or twist that become the difference between caning in accordance to civil law, and caning based from syariah law. The thing is till remains the same, we caned people."

Thats of course not exactly the words that he spoke but the point is almost like that. That was the last question that he answered before he ended his talk that night. I was really upset and damn disappointed with the answer he gave, as a certified JAKIM officer. What is actually his points? that civil and syariah punishments is just the same but with a lil' adjustments? that syariah punishment like caning can be adjusted and fixed and twisted to look more like a civil punishment? OMG. 

I hope he would visit my blog soon and leave an explanation in the comment so I won't lose my faith and respect to him as a certified JAKIM officer. 

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Love is..?

Few weeks ago I signed in my Facebook account and took a mosey around my friends pages. Read a bunch of statuses from each profile, well none of them were about each of them, but do you know what they all got in common? All of them were melodramatic quotes, crediting to each others sweethearts, or at least, talk about nothing but love. 

Then I thought to myself; at the age of 19, is this the mating season for human? &gt;.&lt;

Few moments when I was "busy" stalking into each walls, someone greeted my on the chatbox. A girl I never knew, saying "hi". Then we chatted a lil'; talking about each other and all those boring questions : "how are you", "where do you live", "have you eaten", "what did you do today" etc. Then after a while she suddenly asked me if I've a girlfriend yet, and I replied no. I felt obliged to ask her the same and her answer is the same as mine, no. But she said she was looking for one. Well, what else could I say, I told her to chill coz I assured her that she'll find her match sooner or later, its just the matter of time. Then, she suddenly threw me a question :

"Do you want..?"

I knew I wasn't only blushing at the moment, but it gave me goosebumps too. Yeah! Its creepy to think how that question could be that easy to be thrown to a random guy, that was me, that she just found in just like, 30 minutes earlier! 

Just one question to girls : IS IT REALLY THAT EASY?

Few months ago, an almost exactly the same situation happened to me. I was chatting with a girl I just knew for 2 days (from Facebook) and she already talked about "marriage", "getting married" and "fated to be together". She said that she wished I'll marry her. 

Again, blushed face and goosebumps. &gt;.&lt;

Love is..? That easy..? That short? That simple? Really?

Friday, August 19, 2011

He's The Very Best Of Teacher

Huh, this blogs dusty! Hi all, I'm so sorry for not updating this blog for quite a while, well, its kinda north of a month coz my last post was dating from July 11th 2011. It was just because I got stuck in a situation of "so many things to do, so little time", facing 9 examination papers throughout the month. The worst thing is, it was the Final Examination papers. Yeah, the very last exam before I get to step into the life of a degree student, well, this upcoming September.

The reason why I took the Final Exam real late than the others because I caught a dengue fever when the others were facing the exam. So my exam was dragged to a date dating south of three months from the real final examination date, just for my recovery.

But as my exam was scheduled to be in July, so I have to arrange my own place to stay throughout the 5 days period of exam. But then I decided to just stay at my previous hostel, even it is already occupied with juniors. Well, sharing is caring right? Plus it won't take any longer, just a 5 days period. A LONG 5 DAYS PERIOD.

It was actually a very long, tough a week of 5 days. There were always obstacles, like when I lost my baggage at the bus station in Seremban, when I had to take a paper without an identification card and proper attire (coz my cloths were all there in the lost bag!), and of course, when I had to explain why to the people at the examination center. That moment I was really have to cling to my own self, coz I got nobody to assist me with everything.

But I was so lucky a very generous lecturer got my back. He was Mr. Arho, who teach Physics to the foundation students in my university. He helped me everyday with almost everything; gave me a ride to my hostel, treated me lunch, gave me his office keys in case I want to study in a period between the papers, supported me morally etc. Served me all the assistance I need along such a week of helter skelter like that . I owed him really that much.

On my last day there before I had my last paper, I told Mr. Arho my mechanical pencil was broken and so I wished to borrow a pencil from him. I put the dismantled mechanical pencil on his table (it was terrible broken) all scattered, before I thanked him and left to face the paper. 3 hours later when my paper was over I came back to his office, but he wasn't there. But suddenly I saw my mechanical pencil was still there on the table, but fully mantled and in a good shape. Yes, he fixed it for me, man. I was so touched :)

In the evening when he sent me back to my hostel for the last time, I hugged him real tight, thanked him for helping me and treated me really good, even though before this we never got to know each other that better. I mean, he didn't teach my class or my lecture. I just met him by coincidence before that. But he treated me otherwise; just like I was his son. I felt so touched by his kindness and so lucky to have his assistance. Really do.

He's one of the best teacher I've ever known :) Mucho gracias, Mr. Arho.

Monday, July 11, 2011


السَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

People change, the only thing matter is whether it is approaching positivity or other the way around. Nothing much but the very nature of human. People always change in every sort of things that come in life; lifestyle, attitude, habit, conscientiousness, fervor in something whatsoever, as time flies. Even if they'll say they don't, well, they just do.  

Why do we change? Thats nature. Being human is full of demands. Whatever we've gotten, we always want more than that. It is like, prevailing in something that will lead us to a desire of prevailing another thing further ahead. And to achieve it we must change, which means to take sides, whether to the better or the worse. Coz mind you, in life there are nothing much as a "fence-sitter". We must choose.

Picking a rightful side isn't a hard choice. Living it, is. Why? As most people are lulled by the reality of a worldly life, they tend to chose the wrong side. There are a small portion of them who chose the other side, which is awfully untrodden but it leads to the better life instead; the Islamic way of life. But as there are more people choosing the wrong side rather than the right side, the wrong side suddenly appear to look as "right". 

One friend of mine commented on a profile picture of a girl that wasn't wearing any hijab. He reminded her that it would be nicer if she wore a proper attire as a Muslim. What did he got in return? 

"This is my profile picture okay, get your nose out of it."

My classmate decided to put an end to his relationship with her girlfriend. He knows how wrong it is and he chose to broke up in the name of Islam. Honestly he did, but what do you reckon that girl reacted? 

"Ahh stop pretending to be pious. Get lost."

One of my friend posted in his wall that he's "in a relationship" with a girl. You know what people have responded?

"Wow you're advanced! I don't even get a girlfriend yet. Haha. Good for you." 

This is the MENTALITY of our people. The mindset is tuned into "everything that is wrong in Islam is cool", "things that most people do are great" and "to be Islamic is lame". And this is getting worse everyday; no one is noticing it!

Brothers and sisters, all we need is another change, and this time, it is the MENTALITY.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Bersih 2.0 : Spongebob's Banned in Malaysia

This yellow creature got to change his color if wanna stay broadcasted in Malaysia. 


Wednesday, July 6, 2011

A Baby Boy Being Bitten Repeatedly By A King Cobra

I know the fangs were removed, but I don't really know if there are any parents who have the heart to watch their baby play with a KING COBRA? The venom were gone but that was a really huge King Cobra, and I'm sure it can constrict the baby to death.

In some other way it is an apparent act of cruelty towards the reptile. Without the fangs she can't eat, and she'll die in a few weeks. 

Monday, July 4, 2011

Weird Dreams : My Lecturer Is My Old High School Ex Girlfriend

I took a mosey around the beach on a pulchritudinous eve. There was a function but I couldn't remember what is it. Great in the sky there lies the sun hiding behind a cluster of cloud in the west yellow horizon. Seagulls and kingfishers fly across from nowhere in their flocks, and the sea started to glitter like a wave of diamonds in the sunshine. Dear Lord, it was a perfect eve.

I walked away from the crowd to enjoy the panoramic eve sea view. It was a good riddance; the noise and the standing ovation of the crowd would just wreck my eve. Glaring the divine sky where the sun starts to set and the moon fades in greatly pacify my mind. I felt empty, I felt nothing. For the first time I feel my mind was totally vacant with nothing circling it. I even have no idea why am I here, what was the function is all about, why was I here, how did I got here; in fact, I didn't even know where on earth actually I was! But for some strange reasons I felt it was better that way. I felt real calm.

After a few moment I dragged myself back to the crowd. I was reluctant to walk away from beach but I have to get home. It was already dawn, and my mother would surely kill me if I stay any longer.

It was like a beach party; the people were all nearly scantily clad. But it didn't actually got me in any way, I kept on my track looking for familiar faces that could drive me home. Suddenly I realized how loony it appeared to be; I was like in some weird country and the people were all whites! I was like in some American beaches in some American countries. It was really odd.

I kept walking on, muddled, when I suddenly saw a very familiar face. It was a woman sitting there on a bench. Who was it, I couldn't easily remember, even though I was really sure she must have something to do with me. I didn't have the guts to greet her, but I kept her in sight. Wait, I know this woman..

Out of the blue there was a flash in the pan. Yeah, there were no doubt. She's my lecturer in my university! Dear God, what was she doing here anyway? I stepped in to meet her.

As I approached her I felt something strange. It seemed like she wasn't just a lecturer to me. I finally faced her in person, and my mind could hardly told me that she was my girlfriend, on the other hand! What the heck?

She was still looking familiar to me as a lecturer in my university, but as I greet her she stared into my eyes in a different way. Then she said, "Dear..

Okay knock it off. This is a very stupid dream. Haha. Forget it. Dreams are weird. +.+

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Bersih 2.0 : Yellow Tee VS Red Tee.

Okay this is ridiculous. It is reported that Pemuda UMNO, the one that is strongly against Bersih 2.0 demonstration on this upcoming 9th of July, is now rounding up as much followers as they can to halt the illegal demonstration, with another damn demonstration! They call it 'Himpunan Patriot', and guess what, they will be wearing red tee during the allocated date. Dear Lord..

Deja Vu? Yeah, now it looks EXACTLY like 2009's chaotic Thailand ! Yellow tee against red tee!

Great, now Pemuda UMNO is violating their own words. To stop a demonstration with another demonstration is tremendously preposterous! Apparently this would only get things exacerbated, and this is the clash that will lead to chaos, riots and all the things we afraid of. 

And I wondered if this "Himpunan Patriot" approved by the government, or just another outlaw rally like Bersih 2.0?

Whatever it is, it is the WORST idea I ever heard from UMNO side. Really do. 

Frankly I really don't think Bersih 2.0 Rally alone will turn into chaos. Not, until FRU gonna come on board and mess everything up with their water cannon and tear gas to the crowd. But with the "red tee" of Pemuda UMNO's Himpunan Patriot joining in I'm sure there'll be a terrible catastrophe. Somebody will get hurt.

I'm with Bersih 2.0 of their memorandum that is the main purpose is for search of justice in electoral system. Thats it, and thats all. But talking about the chaos that is going to be happening soon in KL soon, I beg to disagree. But again, Pemuda UMNO has really make things worst. The idea of having another demonstration to stop Bersih 2.0 is totally absurd. You can make a joke out of it!

9th of July 2011, everybody will get wet soon :(

Monday, June 27, 2011

Bersih 2.0 : What Do You Think?

This is my honest opinion pertaining to this matter.

Frankly in politics I'm not taking sides. I prefer to not to stick to any parties, but whoever did right shall get my vote. I'll judge both sides first whenever I think is necessary for me to, in any matter. I'm neutral.

But I do have my own opinion on something, in which means I might be taking sides too, but I'm not going to stick with it.

What Is Bersih 2.0 Is All About?

Okay, shortly it is a gathering or public demonstration in which supported by Pakatan Rakyat (coalition of three largest opposition parties in Malaysia) in which they advocates for electoral reforms in Malaysia, and has been advocating this since the last Bersih gathering in November 2007. It is scheduled to be held again on this upcoming 9th of July 2011 in Kuala Lumpur. They are demanding SPR of Malaysia (the Election Commission of Malaysia) this :

1. Clean up the electoral roll.
2. Reform postal voting.
3. Use indelible ink.
4. 21-day campaign period as a minimum period.
5. Allow all parties free access to the medias.
6. Put an end to dirty politics.

I tried to grasp every each of the demands, I asked few persons and brainstormed them all and I found that all they want by requesting all this demands to EC is just, an equally fair election. Fair enough without any kind of abuse, or any chance of votes to get on some kind of falsification, or electoral manipulation by the government. Thats all.

Okay, we take the second demand as an example. The request is to abolish the postal vote with exceptional to diplomats and overseas voters. Why they're including this in the memorandum? Well all I can say is postal voting is vulnerable to get abused. This is due to report in 1999 where an ex officer in ATM (Malaysian Army) confessed that he had violated thousands of votes for the soldiers, by crossing them by himself as ordered.

Okay, why Harakah? Why other newspaper didn't have any of these reports? Well thats how the system works. You won't write a report that will reveal your true color, don't you?

Oh, you have to know most of the newspaper out there is owned by the government. We have no doubt about this, it is obvious that the government side is dominating the whole media. They own the TV broadcasts, they own the radio channels, and they own the whole lot of newspapers you found out there. So is this fair? A kid can tell how unfair is, and this lead to demand number 5; Allow all parties free access to the medias. This is why they want to have equal access to the media, so it will be an equally fair match.

What do you think then? Your call.

So what is the problem? Why is people against this if there's nothing wrong with the demands? They said demonstration isn't a right way to voice out. "You better write to goverment and they'll consider.." Haha. Is it? I don't think so. Yeah writing to government is the right way to voice out, but we want to be heard. All this while I saw the demands, request or everything that is not "physically" heard or seen, or not by actions are all thrashes. Everything fall on deaf ears. Nothing is considered. So whats the point?

They said the chairperson Dato Ambiga Sreenevasen shouldn't be acceptable by the Malay for her role in the case of IFC (Interfaith Commission) and the apostasy case of Lina Joy. But I think it is better we look to what the thing is going to lead us to, not who is going to lead us to. To the better? If she's going to run something right and for the better, so whats the problem? My friend said :

I chose to agree with him. Coz I saw this thing has nothing to do with what she was doing in 2001, dealing with IFC etc. Yes I agreed and we all know the ungodly things; her role in IFC and Lina Joy case, and we all agreed it couldn't be accepted. But none of the demands itself are dealing with religious or racial matters. It is just all about electoral reformation, and it is indeed to the better coz they want to straighten up things. They just want justice in elections, and thats all this was all about. Is it wrong?

Well, I'm still neutral but I must have a stand, so that is just my opinion regarding this. I saw nothing is actually wrong about this, and I think the are no reasons why we can't have to run this program when the only purpose is for search of justice. What do you think then?

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Whining Again!

Today is the first time I feel a lil bit distracted and outraged for being a blogger. Well, this is not the first time I got criticized for the idea I delivered in my writings here, and my another disgusting blog TNA, and it doesn't matter anyway. In fact I like critics; it improves an idea to the better. It makes an idea grows, fuels critical minds and different views in brainstorming an idea together. Right? And yea, it also shows that my blog also got some readers out there. LOL.

I love good arguments about something brainy, or anything that is just worth to argue on. I did appreciate any feedbacks from the readers, anything, but just one thing; MIND YOUR WORDS. If you don't like the idea than its fine, you are welcomed to hit me back in comments, but please have a manner okay. I don't appreciate offensive, harsh words, please.

I did once received a feedback saying "F*ck you!", and "Stupid Dely" a lil times ago, and I was a lil' bit outraged like, "What did I write to deserve that?" Seriously.

It was an opinion, and most of them was just me whining on something. Know what whining is? Nothing serious! So don't take it so hard lad. And you don't need to be that cranky in your words if you don't agree with anything I wrote here. A good comment will do.


Anyway, congratulations to Hassan and Nazrul of Imam Muda for their success proceeding to final :)

Wish you all the best! People used to criticize this reality program as degrading the religion or commercializing it, your call, but you cannot deny that this program is MUCH BETTER to most other reality programs broadcasted. Try view it positively :)

Monday, June 20, 2011

The Truth Is, I Didn't Yet Have My Final Exam!

I got something to tell ya. Two months ago, when everybody were breaking their backs preparing for the final exam during the study week, I suddenly caught a dengue fever. It was the worst fever, in fact the worst 2 weeks of my life. I was shaking, trembling like a leaf on the bed, and my body was steaming hot. It was reaching 40 degree celcius, and I could firmly assure you, it wasn't really got any better in the first week. On the other hand, I got weaker and weaker everyday. 

I was just merely couldn't do anything. My only room mate was quite ignorant, the one that I really could "count on"; while I was dying on the bed, he kept on studying on his desk! How could he.. I couldn't say a word, but again, never mind, I was just so lucky my other housemates got my back. One of them kindly assisted me to the clinic, but the doctor inspect nothing serious. Nothing serious? But then he gave me Paracetamol and asked us to go to hospital if if didn't really cease in 2 or 3 days. 

Well the next day, I was still shaking on my bed, and I felt worse. I didn't think I could afford to wait for another 2 or 3 days, so my housemate again, decided to send me to a hospital. They brought me to Hospital Serdang, and finally, the doctor spotted that I got symptoms for dengue. That was nothing surprising, coz my friends had been telling that to the doctors in the clinics on the first place, but they didn't believe it. Well, looking to the bright side, at least now they wouldn't take my case lightly as the doctors in the previous clinics. 

But I was wrong. They were still saying that there was nothing going on, so they let me go that night. Then the next day at my hostel, my whole body was seriously shivering, no joke, I mean like, REAL serious. This time if the doctor still gonna say that there were still nothing going on, I would strangle him to death myself. LOL. 

But then guess what, that doctor survived. He finally told us I was really on dengue and would be hospitalized right away. Phew! God bless him. =.=" 

I was there for 3 days till my father came on board and transferred me to Hospital Sultanah Nur Zahirah Kuala Terengganu. Even though my mind was troubled by the dengue, and the final exams I left behind, but still, its good to be home :) 

But anyway, the thing that pinged me that moment was, the doctor there said that I was in critical stage of a dengue fever! Critical, oh Lord, I got real panicked, and merely thought of death. I knew everything could happen that time. I heard lots of dengue cases which ended with deaths, and those cases kept looming in my mind on that moment. I was scared.

Time flew, and approaching a week I've been there the dengue finally started to cease. My body temperature dropped to normal, and I felt healthy again. I was real happy, so thankful to the Exalted for granting me with health again. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah!

Within 3 days I was finally allowed to get home :)

But I'm still have one job undone; Final Exam. It has been 2 months but still no news about it, but I'm working hard on it right now. Pray for me, everything will be fine okay? :)

Okay, back to my study desk! 

Cheerio :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Suicidal : Are You People Going Nuts?

A few months ago I was having my lunch at the cafe of UIAM Nilai when a security guard came and told that a student attempted to commit suicide on the previous night. He slashed his wrist with a knife and threatened to jump from the third floor of the building. 

Security Guard : Last night was a chaos. Everyone got panicked when a boy suddenly got on the ledge. His wrist was bleeding. He threatened that he will jump.

People at the stall : Really? That's something we can't see everyday, didn't it? Haha. Anyway, did he really jumped? 

Security Guard : (Chuckled) Indeed. Haha. Well, he didn't. He was saved, and quickly rushed to the hospital.   What a close call.

People at the stall : That might be a close call, but I don't have a sense of sympathy for a lad like that. He didn't deserve it. What a fool. Didn't he know what are waiting for him in the afterlife if he did suicide last night? Everybody's doing everything they can to sustain a good health, but he purposely looking for death? 

Security Guard : Yeah, thats nothing but obvious stupidity. It is awful to know that an educated people like him would choose to commit such things. Well I might be just a security guard here, but it has never crossed my mind to do so, even though how hard my life has came to be. Well, maybe it is not too much to say that as for today, uneducated people are wiser than the educated ones. 

People at the stall : Yeah well, the world's turning upside down now.

Security Guard : Exactly. Well, you know, when most people got panicked, cried and chaotic as the boy stood on that third floor's ledge and threatened to jump, I must be the only one to say, " Do a backflip!" Hahaha.


Well then, I'm agree with both of them. They're right, those people who commit suicide or attempted to do it don't deserve any mercy nor sympathy. What, do they think life has no value at all? We live for no reason, and so do how we can choose to die? Haha. Great. 

They might be greatly unstable, emotionally interrupted or whatsoever, but there are solutions for all of that. No need to be over outraged and slit your own throat. That won't solve any of your problem, in fact it would only exacerbate it. Don't be a fool okay, value your life to the fullest.

"Islam is the solution" :)

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Don't Mess With Anonymous

In an online game, Plant vs Zombies. There were three players online joining in, me, my worst, good-for-nothing high school friend who stayed just across the street, and an anon.

While playing, we chatted.

Fuad : Hey, great shot man. Smoke that man off already.

Me : Alright. Poww, he's a goner now. :)

Fuad : Yeah, thats a smoke! Great job dude. Hey, speaking about smoke, did you smoke that think I've given you in the class?

Me : That cigars? It was awesome man! It taste like hell, but its really doesn't matter. As long as it makes me looks cool. And macho.

Fuad : Hell yes! Thats my man! It might taste like shit for first timer but sooner you'll feel like you're in heaven. And yeah thats undeniable, it did really makes us look all cool and macho. Besides, thats the one that makes a man.

Me : Yup, I remembered our philosophy. "A man is a boy with a cigar."

Fuad : Right! 

By the time the anon stroke our soldiers and blast them off.

Fuad : Hey! That anon killed our comrades already! What the hell!

Me : Yea! Lets kill him rightaway!

Anon : You might kill me once, but I'm assuring that you'll die twice.

Me : And why the hell is I'm gonna die twice? I got only one profile here YOU TWAT!

Anon : First I'll kill you here, then you'll be killed at home.

Me : What? Now why am I gonna die at home??

Anon : I'll tell you why. First, for smoking cigarettes. Second, for misusing the money to buy cigars, from a jerky friend..

Fuad : Heyy!!!

Anon : .. and third, for calling YOUR FATHER A TWAT.


-me and fuad is now offline-

*don't mess with anonymous. It could be anyone.
*parents are tricky. Don't mess with them either. 
*smoking doesn't makes you look macho nor cool. It gave you cancer.
*there are no soldiers or comrades involved in Plant vs Zombies.
*this wasn't about me. I ain't a smoker, and I don't do those things =.="

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Friends Who Forget

Some friends are disappointment, not worth the effort of being concern to.

I'm a lil bit sensitive when it comes to friends, whatever they did to me that intentionally hurts my feelings would put a scratch in my heart. And even when they apologize, I might say "forget it", but sometimes it would appear to be the "easier said than done" thing. It'll just left another scar in my heart.

Yup, we man also got feelings. Especially when it deals with something that we care so much in. To me its friends.

It was so pathetic, some of my friends didn't feel the same for me. Neglecting my concerns for them, is actually damn heartbreaking. I tried to be a good friend, for I can't be the best, but to it seems to be inconspicuous for them to even value it. I don't think they even notice me as a friend of theirs, might be. Seems not a chance, if this is how they treated me.

Thanks :)

Yes I've always been around, but that really DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU CAN TAKE ME FOR GRANTED.

Screw it, okay. I guess I shouldn't be too available. Did they perceive it? Did they consider anything about it? HELL NO. And far be it to value it. Thanks. You, whom it may concern, have given me the best moments of having friends. Forgetting it would take ages. Its nothing, just another deep deep scar. Thanks :)

I love you friends. But I won't be available anymore. You live your life, I live mine.

Forget it. Ignore this post. Its not for you. It just, sometimes I got hurt just so much and nobody notice it. All this while I tried to train my heart to be resistant to any disappointment or frustration, but sometimes it can't hold it anymore. It just, human. Forget it.

*feeling much better after writing this :)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I Love My Eyes

You know what, all my family members, except the youngest one and me, are "spectacular". Well, and why the heck are that word got those apostrophe? Well because I'm referring to that "spectacular" because they're all wearing "spectacles". None of my family member are that real spectacular yet. For no reason whatsoever.


Looking to that I'm feeling so lucky. I never wore glasses, and I would like to keep it that way forever. Hehe. Well anyway I didn't really find my sisters and my parents enjoy wearing it. It looks troublesome, and not much comfortable. Is it really? Maybe not to everyone. Perhaps some of them prefer glasses than nothing to put on. I don't know.

But my second sister, well, she's the opposite of what I just said when she was in her primary school. I still remembered that how that girl pondered to be just like my eldest sister, on her age, wearing glasses. And she's just 8 on that time! I guess it was just out of her curiosity, she wanna try everything she got in sight. 

All three sisters I have, they got one thing in common; they're seriously addicted to TV. Always got they're eyes glued to the screen. I guess that must be the reason why most of them are wearing glasses now. Me? Well I'm just so lucky coz I don't really got any fervor in watching TV. While the three sisters were having riots in the living room fighting and scrambling for the remote control, I got nothing to lose. I rarely watch it anyway, except if there's any interesting football match, like the one in two days ago. Hehe.

And I can't imagine how would I looks like in glasses. Err..

GODDAMMIT! It looks horrible!

Okay, wearing glasses is the worst idea. Ever.

A Little Imagination On World War III

Well I have the perfect reasons to believe that World War III isn't really an absurd idea. It is possible to happen, as we can see some great nations of the world today are in great denials with each other. 

This is one creative enjoyable singalong video I found on Youtube about an imagination of what would happen in World War III. 

This video made me feel that war is that fun. We can even sing a song on war, that lovely.


Saturday, June 11, 2011

Terengganu, We're Victorious!

Yup I'm from Terengganu and I'm proud of it! Just after the epic match of the two ferocious rivals, Terengganu FC vs Kelantan FC ended, I couldn't hide it anymore, but my heart was really glowing inside in mirth. I was like, wee~

Dear God I was damn so happy!

To win such a match in FA Cup in Malaysia is remarkably awesome, other teams were roughly to say, equally great. And to win over Kelantan FC is truly an uphill struggle! They're tricky!

But my team from Terengganu, they got an equal strength on the pitch, physically, mentally as Kelantan do, eh wait no, Terengganu is actually slightly better! Coz they got the full support from a huge fan like me! Haha.

Both teams were great okay :)

Thats why I think this 2011 FA Cup Final match was just like, the "El Classico" of Malaysia. Haha. Sounds perfect :D

Anyway, we got a day off tomorrow as a commemoration to the winnings!

And we might have another day off the day after tomorrow too, a prize for winning SUKMA 2011, as well :)

Celebrating to last night's great 2-1 victory over Kelantan, this blog will be wearing that special header for a week.

What a glorious year for Terengganu! Proud to be born here :D

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Are You Cool?

Everyone must have their own distinctive way on how they define the term "cool" in themselves, right? On the first place, this isn't the one that has something to do with degree Celsius okay. Naive :D

I found it is sometimes conspicuous on how myself deal with cool people. I'll be by any chance try to get acquainted with them. If you found me sometimes be nice to you in a very awkward time, like you don't know me but suddenly bumped into me and I slightly treated you so freaking nice as you have been knowing me for years, you must be one of them too! Huhu!

These kind of persons are seems to be so cool to me! Are you in? :D

1. People who read/ followed my blog but didn't leave any trace, like in the Chatbox or commented on the posts.     
For some strange reasons I don't know why I think they're so cool. I'll be contemplating to search these peoples and try to befriend with them then. Sounds odd, right? But I do think they're cool, you know, they did visit my blog and read it, but they left no links nor comments for me to visit them too, its like, they didn't really mind whether their visits are replied by another visit by me, or even known or not. They're like, so cool! Hehe. Look how weird I am. BUMMER. 

2. People who contributed a worthy idea in a very short comment. 
These people, to me, know exactly how to express a good idea without miles of explanation. They got a very bright idea, and just by leaving a short comment, left me ponder to think how true it was. That was a very cool comment, by a very cool people :)

3. People who wrote a very brilliant quote in his/her status update on Facebook. It could be amusing too.
I love to read quotes, most specially like a brainy quote that reading it is worthwhile, and funny jokes that could make me laugh, thinking how silly it was. The best status update I've read ever on Facebook is:

"Everyone can quit smoking, but it takes a real man to face cancer."

Haha. Amusing, and it made me think too. Well, this must be quoted from a very wise, heavy smoker. What a perfect reason to count on for not quitting smoking cigarettes. Damn it was so cool. 

And you know who wrote this as his status update? Me! Hahaha. Damn I was very cool! Hehe. But I ain't a smoker kayh! :)

4. Everyone who preferred to be single.
Yup, being single is cool! Its not like he's/she's such a loner, just they preferred it is way better to stay single. And they did everything on their own, a very independent and need not to cling to anyone to settle their own business. Its like, they can survive on their own. These guys are some kind of cool to me too :D

So literally everyone who has couple is never in my 'cool buddy' list at all. Hehe.

5. Every blog that delivers bright ideas.
I don't care who are the author, where he came from, in what language he wrote his posts or whatsoever that might sound like "judging a book from its cover", as long as his ideas aren't too preposterous to retrieve and he's not writing craps and junks, he's always on the list. Anyway, even if I want it too, I can't. He's obviously not a book for me to judge his cover. Burned. Okay, thats a crap.

6. Authors for English blogs in which he/she really have a remarkable flair in English.
Great, isn't it? I really love to read English articles, essays and poems written by amateurs in blogs. Its just very much genuine ideas and real creative. Here's a cool blog I really admires for its awesome literary, poetic posts. Plus the author really got tonnes of vocabs! Superb!

7. People who prefer to remain silent unless it is necessary for him to speak. 
He's cool coz his action speaks louder than words. Even in a situation in which people accused him, or he's being blamed for something he didn't commit, he stay cool and rather not to speak confrontational words to back himself up. He kept his temper smothered from everyone despite of the pressure he faced. But when he speak, that'll be a roar of a lion, and everyone shall listen to him. He got a respect for his voice. Amazing isn't it? Well, it sounds just like my father. :)

8. Unsung heroes.
Hell yes, this are real cool guys! Patriots, most particularly nationalism fighters who stands for the country when everyone yield away, sacrificed himself fighting alone till he fall down. I don't know who are they, but  believe there must be some national fighters who we didn't actually even realized they existed. And their deaths are unknown too, proving that they're not fighting, sacrificing, and dying for names and fame.. Yea, patriots were cool :)

9. Me.
Hahahahahahahahaha.. I'm cool, aren't I? The only time I don't feel cool was when I got hit by dengue fever. My body temperature was reaching 40 degree celcius, and that weren't cool at all! Hahaha. Okay, crap again! =.="

(and now it is suddenly about degree celcius! Ok, my bad. =.=")

Well I guess thats all. Amongst all those cool people I stated above, can you spot what they all have in common? Well?

What they got in common is, all of them got nothing in common! Hahaha! Got yaa.

Okay, knock it off. I think I'm starting to talk craps now. Huhu.