Tuesday, August 24, 2010


No.. Not now.. I'm still stuck in here..Still chained by those books, locked by those annoying exams..  But I will be going in the next 2 weeks, and the next 2 weeks isn't now.. So unluckily I still have to live my life here till the next 2 Fridays..

Oh no, the time is going in a slow mode.. Not again.. Uhh..

You know, I'm not freakingly insane, but to be frank since the last weekend I'm no longer here. No, not with my soul. My mind is already at home, leaving the body here with nothing to do. I can't even focus to my studies, not even for the incoming exams. And actually this isn't the first time, it happens everytime I'm getting home..

But don't get ridiculed coz I think I'm just get jolted by the shock of the new atmosphere I'm living in right now; being far away from home. This is my first, I mean, my very first time to leave the house for quite a range of time, so perhaps I'm just, you know, shocked or whatsoever. Maybe later and sooner, I'll be fine. No more kinda thing. Hmm well, lets hope so..

By the way, FYI my mid sem exams really sucks and I hope you know how frustrating it was. It was like saying ," hey somebody please blow my head!", and to have the result, well I might have to gunshot myself, by myself. And, why? What, please don't ask why! Coz I know that everybody knows that the worst part in exams is to face the result. Yeah, I'm kinda scared , I really am..

* can't wait to be home xP

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Letter to my dear Ramadhan

Salam, to my dear Ramadhan..

I'm so glad to see you ever again, after such a long wait.. When you blaze your trail this morning, I'm just feeling like an electron in the Photosystem 1 acquiring photons from the sunlight and just got boosted from P700 reaction center, up up and away to my excited state! Yeah..So excited to embrace you again right now.. How I miss you!

You know, this morning when I rose up, I realized that today is not the same day as yesterday.. I learned that, how the day was so calming and cool, with blowing soft air, nice blue sky,and shining little sun from the yellow horizon.. Everything was just so harmony and peaceful, just as the mother nature was celebrating the day and commemorating your presence, dear..

Pal, you know, when you left me a year ago, my life was no longer such a mirth. Yes I'm happy throughout the year, but without you, I felt my life is stranded somewhere out in the desert with nowhere to go, and I've lost my compass..  Without you dear, it was like my life is pacing out of my path slowly, leading me further and further away from Him.. 

But dear, when you're around, its the way around that happening. My dusty life suddenly turned so wonderful everyday and night.. and I feel closer to Him more than ever..

So please, can't you stay here a little bit longer this time, dear? I'm so afraid to lose you everytime you go and ever again,  because I'm not pretty sure that we can ever meet again when you come back again a year ahead.. Future is just unpredictable..

Marhaban ya Ramadhan.. I love you.. =)