Thursday, October 14, 2010

This Post Is Nothing





To be honest and just, this post is frankly nothing. It have nothing to do with you and anyone, but myself. Just a little thought of my own self in this huge widely spread globe; the world. So not to disappoint you, I don’t think you want to read this. Coz at the end of this post you would find it nothing greater than just such a waste of time. Just, skip this ok.



"The day had just blazed its trail, typically and naturally, when the sun had just rise from the East of the yellow horizon at 6.50 a.m. every day. But despite of the normal circumstances and the circulations of the day, my day was in fact starts later, usually 8.00 a.m. in the morning. Yeah, I had always used to wake up late, or later in the morning. And no matter how chaotic the morning is, with my room mates and housemates rushing and dazing and dying to catch the morning bus to the campus, I’m still here in my sweet goodnight’s dreams, coated and warmed, silently sleep in peace in my room. Nothing had interrupted my world, my easy life every day.

Living a student life who studied in my university is actually, yes actually that rough. As our hostels and campus are so far apart,(7 km away), we are so unluckily had to rush for the bus every day. The system runs simple, miss the bus, miss the class. Miss the class, miss the lesson. And that’s the worst part, coz once you miss one part of your lesson here, you will be swept through all other parts. Its extremely hard to catch up once you’re missed you know.

But as now I’ve already had my own transport sent here, the bus had no longer mean a thing to me. And what a good riddance, I don’t have to face the ugly truth of the morning bus ever again, which had always get on my nerve before. You should now how that is really sickening and so off-putting.

For those who read this, I want you to know that, as a science student here who are still struggling for my survival next semester, I’m actually skeptical about my chance for sure. If you do know about my mid semester exam’s results, I guaranteed you wouldn’t wonder why I’m feeling so. In fact, you would feel the same too, I think.

I don’t want to, but it is complementary and was packed in my course to take all 7 credited subjects; Maths, Biology, Physics, Chemistry, Arabic, Quranic Studies and MUET. Actually, I don’t have any problems with any of them to study with but, I found it so hard to grasp some of them. For example, I doubted myself to strike Maths and those three science subjects in the incoming final exam with an ‘A’, when actually I wasn’t aimed to have one. My goal is just to pass the exam, not with flying colors, but just to have a higher grade than 1.7. Coz if I’m lower than that, I’ll be out of here.

Oh God, I can’t afford to be so. I’m so don’t wanna be dismissed from my studies here. That will be the biggest failure in my life, and I don’t really know how would I do to face that.

Now, every night, as I lay my eyes on the skies, I got worried. I’m so worried to predict and to think what will be happening next. I’m afraid to embrace my future.

But, as my life goes hard as time flies, someone had suddenly come and knocked to be part of my life. She makes my life wonderful when it turned upside down, and she ease my worries a lot till I have my guts ever again to face the future. Thank God, she came into my life when I am really dying to have someone to talk to.

Jenny, you meant a lot to me now..Thanks.. =) "



See..you’re just killing your time reading this thing. Its all just about me..

O.o

5 comments:

Hana Nawwara said...
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Nor Hafizah Mahamud said...

everyone commit mistakes,
and it's totally hurt when they are happened,
but years of later collection of mistakes are called experience which could us you to success.
Good Luck!

Saefullah said...

Jenny?
A girlfren?
D'u hve a girlfren now bro?
OMG..
what can i say..

hmm, takyahla men gf gf ni..kan dose tu..
mngadu la masalah kat ALLAH

everything you define me said...

Whoa,thats literally means "I really do have one". Thats why I'm posting it in a label of 'whining'. This is just a post that I created, and I'm just putting a sense of melodrama like that to make it more interesting. I'm just trying to improve my MUET la bro, don't worry.

take it easy =)

Saefullah said...

ohh..malu..=.=!